Former Newcastle player Derek Bell says he wanted to kill the coach who sexually abused him during the 1970s.
Bell was groomed and abused by George Ormond between the ages of 12 and 16 while playing for the Montagu and North Fenham boys football club.
Ormond was jailed for six years in 2002 after being found guilty of a string of sexual assaults on young boys.
Bell says he went to Ormond's house in the late 1990s with "a 12-inch knife" but the ex-coach was not at home.
Ormond became involved in youth coaching at Newcastle United around this period before leaving the club, reportedly in October 1998.