It was my hope that the 10th anniversary of my greatest day in football would be marked in a spectacular way, but not like this.
A decade on from Manchester City's first Premier League title, we got '93:20' in reverse on Wednesday.
I've scratched my head, trying to find a comparable experience from my career, but I'm at a loss to explain what happened against Real Madrid in those fateful final minutes.
Perhaps the best way to frame it is this — I now understand what Manchester United's players went through at Sunderland in 2012, when they were standing on the pitch, thinking they were going to be champions, until we ripped it away from them in stoppage time.