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Idaho State University softball player Haley Harrison still fighting off the darkness

The darkness rolls in like an invisible fog, draping over every thought, compounding until the internal agony becomes unbearable.

Haley Harrison built a facade to mask its clutches, swallowing the mental torment to avoid any appearance of weakness. A senior softball player at Idaho State, she had been taught all her life to be mentally strong, to tamp down vulnerabilities.

Three times the darkness — and the weight of trying to suppress it — overwhelmed Harrison. Her exhausted mind saw no way out except through the bottom of a pill bottle.

She got a proper diagnosis, not just the "you're depressed" she heard so many times.