It doesn't sound like Kevin Pillar truly understands what is going on.
Pillar, who was suspended by the Blue Jays in 2017 for yelling an anti-gay slur at Jason Motte, is quoted extensively by the Herald's Jason Mastrodonato and Eric Rueb of the Providence Journal, who noted that Pillar "said a lot of good things during Thursday's press conference ... [but] if you keep a person talking, the truth eventually finds the surface".
Pillar admitted the decision to not play their scheduled game last night (in solidarity with Jackie Bradley, who had told his teammates he would not play) was "not an easy [one] for a lot of us".