Ange Postecoglou revealed Tottenham's game against Manchester City was his 'worst experience as a manager' over concerns about his integrity.
He also admitted that he misjudged the feelings of the Spurs fanbase in the run-up to the game, with some fans seeking a deliberate defeat to hamper Arsenal's chances of Premier League glory.
Postecoglou was speaking ahead of Tottenham's trip to Sheffield United on Sunday, where Spurs must pick up at least a point to ensure they finish the season in fifth, and cannot be caught by Chelsea.
On the issue of Tuesday night's 2-0 defeat, Postecoglou said: 'I got a real anxiety within me of.